Thankful

Just over a week ago I received an email telling me that Rwanda was temporarily closing it's doors to new adoptions due to their efforts to protect the children from horrendous crime. Grateful for those efforts, my heart still sank.  I had no idea what this meant for me or for the numerous friends on this journey as well.  Over the next 24-36 hours we saw miracles, grace from government and the kindness of God.  We also saw heart break and the beginnings of a grieving process that I know I don't yet understand.

As for the Choy family, our Dossier is safe and sound in the office in Kigali and as far as we can tell, things will proceed as expected for us.  We feel thankful, so thankful for that.  We now sense a keener awareness of God's involvement in each aspect of this adoption.  We see more clearly that God is in control.  We trust His timing and we are grateful for it.  


By the way, when Kyle heard that new adoptions were not being allowed for a little while, he said, "Mommy, do you think they want to keep the orphans because they are all so cute?"  And to that I could only say "I love you!"

In the meantime, I did a little tidying up around the house.  It all ended with the bags of hand me down girl clothes that I dared not look into, being displayed cutely on their hangers for my hearts imagination to indulge in any time I want.  I let myself fall in love with our little girl just a little bit more each day. 

In the wait, I am convicted that our hope is not in adoption.  It's not in our expectations.  It's not even in our sense of being called to adopt.  Our hope is in God.  That He is good.  That He knows best.  That He is in control.  We are all thankful for that!!

I'm not sure what to think of this except that maybe this is the boys way of saying they are ready to play dress up with their little sister soon.