All Things Girly

So here I am, just over 2 months DTR and as hard as I'm trying to restrain myself, I did cave in on one little tiny thing.


As my family can attest, I've grown up living firmly by the principle, "Lower your expectations.  That way you won't be disappointed".  I'm not saying this is a good way to live, it's simply how I roll.  But as it effects our road to adoption, I'm realizing how hard I have to work at it.  As soon as I feel excitement or anticipation seeping toward the surface, I quickly pat them down and remind my hope to not get too high.  Then another voice in my head says, "Go with it!  Get excited!  Look at what is coming your way!"
So I gave in to the second voice and bought her a little tiny gift.  

I'm not a tom boy, but I'm not a girly girl either.  I grew up with a brother who I tried my best to be like.  That did well for my parents toy budget as I was not into Barbie's or Cabbage Patch dolls or whatever most girls were into.  I wanted to play with Lincoln Logs and Match Box cars as long as it was with my brother.  And then I birthed 2 boys.  I love how "simple" they are.  It's really not complicated around here.  Just a little messy and a lot LOUD!  And though they are only 4 & 2, leftovers are rarely an option.  They can clean up real well when it comes to food!!


So here in our future I see a dimly lit vision of a precious baby girl.  I am both ecstatic and scared to death.  Today, as my boys jumped fearlessly from our tall bed into a pile of pillows below, I reminded them that when their sister arrives they won't be able to play so rough when she is around.  They just giggled and climbed up on the bed in search of one more moment of thrill.  


As I look at this bow and imagine it circling her cute face like a perfectly wrapped package, I also see my boys running around the house, teasing her and abusing it as if it were a rubber band to shoot at the ceiling fan and fling around the house.  But really, either option leaves a smile on my face.  

After all, I really do have a lot to look forward too!